2018.08.29 – Appreciate Every Moment

I have not been keeping up with this idea of a gratitude journal, but I am not discouraged. Often picking up a new or abandoned habit can take time and patience. And many times you just have to accept that you have not met your goal and give it another go. And I really had a reason to give it another go 😀 Because today’s post is about being grateful for moments in your life, big and small!

Not a lot of people know this, but I am expecting. It has been four months of excitement, anticipation and newness. It has been scary and beautiful at the same time. My body is changing and I am changing with it. And I was terrified of what it would mean for my relationships. But everyone reacted so well, offering me support and encouragement, which helped quiet down my anxieties. And now one of my partners, who is not a biological parent, but will most certainly be a parent in every other way, came to a scan with me. We had talked about it for a long time and we finally decided on a date to go to the doctors office. He took my hand and kissed me as we sat down in the hallway, waiting to be called in.

And when we walked in, it was such a moment, to see him sitting on the chair, full of emotion and such happiness as he looked at the monitor and got to meet the baby for the first time. Having the privilege of  bringing him with me on this journey has filled me with joy. I could not take my eyes off of his huge smile as he stared at the monitor and the doctor calmly explained everything. And I will reserve another posting just for my doctor who is just an amazing human being and has made my adventure perfect.

At the end of it all, I took a moment to reflect on my incredible luck. There are women out there who are struggling, single mothers who have never been to a scan with anyone holding their hand, children who will never meet anyone to call a family. And here I am, with not one, but two partners who are with me, who have been nothing but supportive, who share the opportunities to go with me to the baby scans. So I take this moment to be grateful for having them in my life, together with all the other close people who are constantly asking me about the baby and me and look forward to meeting this brand new tiny human. And if you know someone who is alone in their pregnancy, ask if they need anything. This is a trying time and no one should go through it alone.